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2011-04-04T23:41:00.001+08:00

我不开心有人知道吗？

好想躲起来，好想谁都不见。

不想讲太多，但憋着很不好受...

2011-03-15T23:46:00.001+08:00

i think i really should be done feeling as such.

and omg do i feel stressed. =/

2011-03-14T00:12:00.002+08:00

waiting waiting waiting.
it is tiring.
it is draining me if you don't realise.

so it's time to end i suppose.

2011-02-20T02:02:00.002+08:00

steamboat+mj session at cheryl's. post cny gathering.
ultra mega full! and still amused by her mum!
so into soccer, she got 11 of our eyes glued to the screen, watching the fa cup. lol.
such genuine love for something is really seldom seen,
much less, a mama who loves her soccer! :D

不想再背负太多期盼对好奇或关心顺其自然

2011-02-16T01:16:00.003+08:00

oh yeahh, maybe we're just wired differently.
so i just can't seem to see from your point of view.

2011-02-15T00:07:00.000+08:00

Pain

Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we’re wired that way. Because without it, I don’t know; maybe we just wouldn’t feel real. What’s that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop.

Happiness

Maybe were not suppose to be happy. Maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy. Maybe being grateful is recognizing what you have for what it is, appreciating small victories admiring the struggle it takes simply to be human. Maybe we’re thankful for the familiar things we know and maybe we’re thankful for the things we will never know. At the end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing is reason enough to celebrate.

Fairytale

You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.

Faith

At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don’t really expect it. It’s like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And it’s not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away.

Intimacy

Intimacy is a four syllable word for, “Here’s my heart and soul, please grind them into hamburger, and enjoy.” It’s both desired, and feared. Difficult to live with, and impossible to live without. Intimacy also comes attached to the three R’s… relatives, romance, and roommates. There are some things you can’t escape. And other things you just don’t want to know.

Life

I know it’s not perfect, but it’s life. Life is messy sometimes And still there are times when it just gets away from you. No matter how hard you fight it, you fall. And it’s scary as hell. Except there’s an upside to free-falling. It’s the chance you give your friends to catch you.

Denial

We deny that we’re tired, we deny that we’re scared, we deny how badly we want to succeed. And most importantly, we deny that we’re in denial. We only see what we want to see and believe what we want to believe, and it works. We lie to ourselves so much that after a while the lies start to seem like the truth. We deny so much that we can’t recognize the truth right in front of our faces.

Speak

At the end of the day, there are some things you just can’t help but talk about. Some things we just don’t want to hear, and some things we say because we can’t be silent any longer. Some things are more than what you say, they’re what you do. Some things you say cause there’s no other choice. Some things you keep to yourself. And not too often, but every now and then, some things simply speak for themselves.

One Kiss

For a kiss to be really good, you want it to mean something. You want it to be with someone you can’t get out of your head, so that when your lips finally touch you feel it everywhere. A kiss so hot and so deep you never want to come up for air. You can’t cheat your first kiss. Trust me, you don’t want to. Cause when you find that right person for a first kiss, it’s everything.

-Grey’s Anatomy

2011-01-21T01:25:00.002+08:00

i guess i placed my emphasis wrongly.
and i guess i thought too highly of myself..

and i truly understand why I don't like ppl getting too close to me, emotionally.

i guess people like me just hurt more.

2011-01-12T00:36:00.001+08:00

ARGHhhhh :(

2010-12-12T19:24:00.002+08:00

attended a sweet sweeet sweeeeet wedding lunch earlier on.
suprises after suprises. too sweet, too touching.
much tears of joy involved. ((((((:
was so touched someone i met once actually rememberd my name,
i was trying so hard to recall his just now. LOL

found out by chance that a sec sch classmate has gotten married and another has gotten engaged. wow oh wow!
tis the season to be loving? ((:

2010-12-12T01:32:00.001+08:00

only remembered when im needed. sigh.

2010-12-01T01:46:00.002+08:00

after all the hassle.
im back at square 1.
what a fool.

i will not regret what i will do from this day forth!

2010-10-20T00:50:00.003+08:00

明知道爱情并不牢靠
但是我还是拼命往里跳
明知道再走可能是监牢
但是我还是相信只是煎熬

朋友都劝我不要不要
不要拿自己的幸福开玩笑
但是做人已经那么累
假惺惺的想要逃
在爱里连真心都不能给
这才真的真正的可笑

爱得太真太容易让自己牺牲
太容易让自己沉沦
太容易不顾一切满是伤痕

我太笨
明知道你是错的人
明知道这不是缘分
但是我还奋不顾身
但我相信有点可能

可能在爱里面这样算笨
可能永远没有所谓永恒
但是我不愿放弃这里面一点点可能
宁愿笨也不想要悔恨

2010-10-18T17:18:00.001+08:00

you probably wouldn't want me to treat you the way you treat me.
so please, it's enough.

2010-10-17T23:05:00.001+08:00

thanks for the affirmation.
you made my night. (:

2010-10-15T11:36:00.000+08:00

greyy.

2010-09-27T15:44:00.001+08:00

PLEASE.

2010-09-22T01:17:00.002+08:00

over on msn..

j: OMG I WAS JUST ABT TO CLICK ON YOU KNOW
HAHAHAHA
TELEPATHY

it's only this easy to make my night (: HAHAHA

2010-09-20T02:28:00.003+08:00

SIGH.

I think I sigh about ten thousand times a day.

2010-09-12T17:33:00.001+08:00

HOW DO I DECIDE?

2010-09-03T02:10:00.002+08:00

Circumstances Shapes Ideals. Yes?

anyhooo, chatting to someone
whom I've lost contact for/never even been close
about anything and everything is kinda a nice thing.
never even thought it was possible.
at least it lifted my mood. ((:

come what may,
I'd just be keeping my fingers crossed.

TERE, you better takecare over there and stop jetting off, leaving us here in sg.
and meet us soon when you are back! loveyou! (:

2010-08-30T01:32:00.001+08:00

my head says this but my heart says that.

words are really a powerful tool.

2010-08-29T00:42:00.002+08:00

whyyyyy?

is it just my problem?

2010-08-27T14:06:00.005+08:00

time really flies! 3years just flew past!
3 years of bus74+hard work+playing harder+fighting hard+friends made.
helllo my deg w dist. ((((((:

grandma love! (((:

really love and thank her for everything she has done for me.

how can i forget thy sponsors. :D

my dad looks so cute carrying all my stuff. heehee.

study+gossip loves (:
no more drawing+talking+sleeping thru lessons tgt. LOL

the things we went through tgt (:

jiemeis ((((:

jiemeis(missing chi) + monster aka boss

and the toss! :D

2010-07-08T01:26:00.005+08:00

pristine!

this is paradise.

birthday suprise no 1 for TanCY - success!
picnic @ marina barrage.
thereafter waiting 30min for the bus out to the mrt station
we had 9 ppl and yet we missed the stop to alight! -.-

birthday suprise no2 for Chi - success!
kbox @ marina (no suprise)
marche @ 313 (start of suprise)
timbre cuz boss did not wanna head home early.
silly girl was still in a state of shock even as we were heading home :D

my girls! (tere, jess, carolyn, jas, chels) when are we meeting?
jess, it's july! heeeheeheee.

a simple msg from someone least expected was all it took to make my day, today (:

when someone does something to you over and over again,
it's only natural that one gives up one day.. right?

GERMANY vs SPAIN NOW.

2010-06-23T02:12:00.002+08:00

and all we can do is hope and pray.. cos' heaven knows

2010-05-24T01:13:00.005+08:00

hongkong with 3 crazy girls + staying opposite the presidential suite making hell a lotta noise from 2 am onwards + waking at 9am to catch csi.

of course, not forgetting the foood. (:

silly as it may seem, its your life. just be happy.

my sweetie! (:

2010-04-08T00:41:00.002+08:00

HAPPPPPYYYY! (:

How to Train Your Dragon
with chi+pk+EC+big boss in the aftnn,
it was goooooooooood! ((((((((((:

and this time, it's really bye bye to assignments forever!

2010-04-07T01:48:00.001+08:00

okayeeeee. calm down.
~~where are you? dun come online when it's the crucial part. ahhh.~~

2010-03-26T00:53:00.002+08:00

rawrr. the aZZZZignment is taking up too much of my time.
i see my groupmates more than anyone else..
not enough time to studddyyy too.
is there anyone who can lend me their time? =/

2010-03-25T02:19:00.002+08:00

listening to all the talk.
the despair i hear in different people.
the anguish.
the discontentment.
the un-willingness to 'let go'
the heartaches.
the sleepless nights.
the tears.
but what can we do?
what else can I DO?

2010-03-18T02:29:00.001+08:00

i share a love-hate r/s with projs.
i really really do. :(

2010-03-11T23:59:00.002+08:00

been sucha long time since i laughed so hard till i teared and my sides and mouth ache! (((((:

2010-03-11T01:05:00.000+08:00

WHY?!?!

2010-03-09T23:56:00.004+08:00

i actually envy all the frozen things sitting in my freezer, simply because they get to 'sit' in the cold the whole day long!
the weather sucks, the haze sucks. my temper sucks because of it. chants*

i enjoy my yoga classes (:

sometimes, i really don't wanna be the first few to know.
being caught in the middle certainly does NOT have it's perks.

2010-03-05T01:25:00.002+08:00

"i don't like to go to the movies. ohh, but you should watch this & this & that " hmmmmmmmmm.
seriously, how do I stop myself from doubting your words?

a really random msg by random friend.
H: eh, i just spoke to a geraldine lim. LOL. i tio stunned.

hahahaha. i found it rather amusing i have no idea why..
i do have a rather common name + surname huh.. (((((:

2010-03-02T23:58:00.002+08:00

oh gosh.. what is investment all about?
i understand zilch to date. =/
goshgerr, pleasestartconcentratinginlesson.

somewhere along the way, silence took over .

2010-02-25T01:25:00.002+08:00

dad whilst we walk past a maid agency : how can this be real?
me: huh?
dad: how can the maid really be happy doing housework? look at the way they smile! are you happy doing housework?
me: -.-

my dad.. hahah.

people can really change a hundred and eighty degrees..
or is it just the impression that they give us, causing us to believe that they will never ever do such things?

2010-02-22T00:42:00.001+08:00

i feel happy-jumpity today . :D

2010-02-17T02:30:00.002+08:00

LUNAR NEW YEAR, it's feasting feasting and more feasting with each house visited!
of course not forgetting, gambling. huat ah! so who's winning a lot? (:

seriously, i do get irritated. so stop this incessant whining.

2010-02-13T01:53:00.001+08:00

waiting to see what happens. hmmm

2010-02-12T01:37:00.001+08:00

finally i got my cny clothes. and i'm happy with it
heartland stalls rock. (((((:

2010-02-01T02:27:00.000+08:00

Han's Pub + St James + Zirca + Rebel (((((:

2010-01-23T01:38:00.003+08:00

it's a nice feeling seeing my name appear really
reallyyy randomly on someone else's post (:

note to self : curb spending! rahh.

2010-01-14T19:06:00.004+08:00

only 4 days of school and i'm so tired. i do like school despite this. plus after activities!

picnic + random shopping decision 10min before lesson end + impromptu decision to drop by amk hub (didn't wanna head home) (((:

a mobile rang in class and instead of getting mad, my lecturer actually laughed and welcomed it.

all because it reminded him of his 4 year old son..

that led to him discusing his son + lady gaga...

and the "gaga-o-lala" song (bad romance) (as his son calls it)

awfully cute picturing the 4 year old liking lady gaga

with bad romance +poker face on replay all the time and the parents hating that song so when it used to be their favourite.. hahah.

it's his last day today, and how i wish i can have him for the rest of my semester instead of the one that's gonna take over (boring loud booming voice ~~i really dislike~~ =S)

2010-01-12T00:33:00.001+08:00

LAST SEMESTER.......(motto)
work hard, play harder. heh.

2009-12-10T01:44:00.002+08:00

for no reason, im bloated and been feeling like puking......

since 12. f. how to get to bed like this now?

2009-12-04T01:29:00.002+08:00

indifferent would be the word. not delighted, not ecstatic.
i'm evil but i was slightly pleased i won you.

went for a birthday dinner just now at Roland Restaurant, at marine parade.
i love the prawn with slightly spicy-salted egg gravy over it. oooohhhh, superb. teehee.
highly entertaining dinner. 'so high'.
and i bumped into my jc classmate cum vball partner. 38! time to catch up 38! hahaha.

2009-12-03T01:03:00.003+08:00

3rd DECEMBER.
i think i won't be able to get to sleep tonight. PANIC!
major PANIC. results.
*crosses finger* *stomach does double flip*

I promise promise promise to strive next sem.
gonna be all nerdy starting from DAY 1 , ahahaha.

i need new reads now. anything anybody? hmm.

immensely happy when i 'msn-ed' with you yesterday.
yeah the distance still exsist. and i cannot stop myself from harping on it.
how many times have you told yourself, gerr, not to think anymore
but time and again you did. you let yourself down! shutup already.

Boy oh boy, what a cycle it is.

2009-11-26T01:30:00.002+08:00

an ica officer thought i was under 16 and did not believe me when I mentioned my age.
which made me happy momentarily, ok longer than momentarily. hahaha.

results are gonna be out exactly one week from today.
how fast is that?! doomsday is fast approaching omg.
i 'RIP' what i sow......
the next thing coming, the big fat school fee.
~~boy is my school making money..~~ lalala~

2009-11-23T17:19:00.002+08:00

exams been over for a while now.
PLAY!! ahahaha

the bros heading to bratislava with the school choir soon.
how i hope i can fit into his luggage. hahah.

last sem next year..what am i gonna do? directions..?

heading out for a swim now! rare that it's not raining now! (:

2009-10-30T15:53:00.002+08:00

事情如果那麽簡單那就好了
想讓自己不見
瞬間就通通消滅
人類如果沒有心臟那就好了
受傷不會流血
悲傷也不會流淚

不需要有同類
傳染頹廢
不需要愚昧的尊嚴
不需要去偷竊你的思念
自我安慰

就讓我僞裝我嘴角不屑
讓孤獨乘以更孤獨的兩倍
允許我保留我最後一點點
特權轉載來自
赦免我想念你的心碎
如果我眼神裏閃爍不屑
可能我心裏一半已經殘廢
那一半跟著你走遠了的那一天
這一半漸漸地瓦解

如果我還有一點點不屑
别想要說服我純潔的絕對
我只是世界上物種絕種的絕類
悄悄的失眠了一光年

如果我還有一點點不屑
那是我自己虛榮心在作祟
自以爲或許有一天我們會重疊
我可以再愛你第二遍

2 DOWN 2 TO GO!

2009-10-23T01:08:00.002+08:00

this's the limit.i will no longer think bout this.

3 more days.. omg!
superbly unprepared.. hate this feeling!

2009-09-21T02:01:00.001+08:00

You, do you remember me?
Like I remember you?
Do you spend your life
Going back in your mind to that time?
Because I, I walk the streets alone
I hate being on my own
And everyone can see that I really fell
And I'm going through hell
Thinking about you were somebody else

Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes someday you will see
That Somebody's Me
That Somebody's Me

How, How could we go wrong
It was so good and now it's gone
And I pray at night that our paths soon will cross
And what we had isn't lost
Cause you're always right here in my thoughts

Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes someday you will see
That Somebody's Me
That Somebody's Me

You'll always be in my life
Even if I'm not in your life
Because you're in my memory
You, will you remember me
And before you set me free
Oh listen please

Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes someday you will see
That Somebody's Me
That Somebody's Me

2009-09-19T01:05:00.004+08:00

i liked the show(:

school school, tests tests, exams exams.

stress stress!

i can totally bite off someone's head now. lol.

why?so many qns infiltrate my mind.

weird feeling each and everytime.

so unimportant till i finally vanished.

always difficult to say goodbye.

2009-08-20T17:57:00.000+08:00

being insomniac sucks. tsk.
had to wake up for school at 630 and
bloody finally getting to sleep only at 5.
-.-

2009-08-13T00:14:00.002+08:00

pray pray pray.
that's the one thing we can all do best in these times.
panic, fear, not knowing what's best.
stay strong, my dears.
we all need all the guidance we can get,
into making the correct decision..

all the confusion, anguish, pain..........
='(

2009-07-01T11:13:00.001+08:00

school starts in 4 hrs time!

2009-06-29T16:55:00.000+08:00

http://ourfeistyprincess.blogspot.com/
a 4 year old's fight against cancer.

2009-06-21T02:20:00.002+08:00

weird people, weird dream, weird. eeks.

2009-05-20T15:01:00.006+08:00

open page, stare, click the 'red X' . repeat.
that's what always happens.

i have things to say, but why does my mind
go blank every single time i'm here?

as a child, nothing was feared, i can just shoot my mouth,
without ever being afraid of offending anyone.
as a teen, words came out easily, details provided even.
as i get older, tongue are held, less direct, less details.
how will it be when i am aged? hmmm

holidays right now. and gahh, no work.
i'm dead boredd & ~~broke~~ =S hahah.
ohh well~! (:

2009-04-12T03:16:00.000+08:00

sucks yucks sucks.

2009-03-26T00:41:00.002+08:00

how'd you feel if you've travelled one over hour all the way to school,
just to have your class taken up by some other classes.
resulting in cancellation of your class.
"haiya, they all cock up la" in a darn cocky tone, u all said. hmmm.

was angry >.<

2009-03-16T17:35:00.004+08:00

casino night at van's place on sat was great.
her house is omg..... damn nice! nice view, nice location!
it was great seeing all the girls from the old school..
"omg, that classifies me as an __ ____! tgt with all of u! omg"
hilarious! inside joke
learnt texas hold'em. and boy, no beginner's luck for me!
always dealt lousy cards, lucky thing is that we played with fake chips.
HAHAHAHAH. mahjong+bingo was great too. (of cuz there's forfeit involved with bingo)
most fun of all definitely gotta be........
.
.
"drinking buddies(or was it googles?haha) up.. hoot!"
all of us were laughing a hell lot. xD
the exciting part : once seated at the table,
no one was allowed to visit the toilet till a stipulated time! HAHAH!
totally dis-regarding the time, we all laughed and screamed so loudly all the time. haha!

attended a wedding on sunday at hort park. my old neighbour - childhood "korkor" fren. (:
the place is great for the function, space-wise. the food + svc was good too.
seeing the crowd, i understood why he decided on a buffet style instead. hahah
congratulations to him n his wife! she sure is pretty,
and they've been tgt since their secondary school days!
woots, that's a really really long time.
he planned a lotta things himself and even drove his own wedding car! (:
the feeling of seeing someone i spent my childhood playing with getting married and beginning his new life is.....
a great feeling, kinda indescribable. (: (:

and of course, i managed to catch up with my other childhood fren, his bro.
that fella still makes me laugh with his antics.

oh yes, im quite pissed off with my course coordinator,
last week she said..
"you all are supposed to plan your time properly when i upload your exam dates to you by monday"
up till now she still has not informed us about our examination dates.
and the other day, she kinda let slip that they're gonna begin on the 23ofapril.
i know im supposed to be ready by around that time..
but knowing the dates provide me with more security,
at least i know how i am supposed to allocate time etc..
and yes, we all agree we much prefer our previous coordinator!so much more efficient!
and her announcements are always so much clearer than yours. pah.

2009-03-11T00:33:00.000+08:00

You work hard, seeking success. You are self-sufficient and in spite of all the trials and tribulations that have beset you in the past you carry on regardless.. You are one to be admired because you pursue your objectives single-mindedly and with initiative. You know that you can 'do it' and what is more, you will - without necessarily being dependent upon the goodwill of others.

Recently you have been experiencing considerable mental anguish and turmoil. You are bored and discontent. Nothing seems to be going right for you. Even your relationships aren't working out and you don't quite know which way to turn.

We are all conditioned by our environment and as such we respond to people's perception of ourselves, but you feel that conditions are not right at this time. You are experiencing certain reservations that are precluding you to develop a particular relationship, business or personal, that is being offered. It is 'make your mind up time' - the decision is all yours, but whatever decision you make, it will be the right one.

You are pretending that the situation around you doesn't matter, but the effort of trying to conceal your emotions and anxieties is resulting in untold stress. The existing situation is disagreeable. You feel unwanted and lonely and you would really like to associate with someone whose ideals are as high as your own. You want to be above the standard of mediocrity and this need to be needed and that need to need has almost become an obsession. You are trying to magnify the need into a compelling urge.

You would really like to tell the world how great you are but no, you are holding back because you feel that your peers may treat you with contempt. This is a great pity because you have in fact a unique quality of character, but the continual restraint that you impose on yourself makes you suppress this need for others and you pretend you don't really care. You treat those who criticise you with contempt. However, to be honest, beneath this assumption of indifference you really long for the approval and esteem of others.

You need to be respected as an exceptional individual. This is the only way that you can hope to achieve the status that you wish to achieve. You set yourself very high standards - and come what may - you abide by them.

LOL, true only to some extent. (:

2009-03-04T01:45:00.000+08:00

much as i thought i am unaffected. i am.
greatly indeed...

2009-03-04T00:39:00.005+08:00

last week's.

meal + coffee makes me/us happy. (:

stats test today was a killer!

there were 3 versions of the paper circulating through the room.

simply to prevent cheating!

so the person sitting next to you will not have the same paper.

what is worse, after calculating your values and all,

your answer is not listed in any of the options. which means

my whole paper was filled with many e) none of the above

so i realised it was the same for all 3 versions. =/

sometimes i think i am so blind and oblivious to my surroundings.

wake up gerr! time to observe more!

i know it is our fault. when i read your posts,

from time to time, you mention it.

you have little faith, i'm so sorry.

i don't know what i can do except be a ~~silent reader~~.

youu said we don't care for youu. that we are "casting" youu aside.

do youu really think we are doing that?

do youu realise how much youur actions/words are hurting us?

how piercing it is? i guess not, because youu have someone else

youu can turn to.someone who truly "cares" for youu.

2009-02-23T17:58:00.005+08:00

saturday evenin saw me attendin yueer's 21st bday party cum housewarmin.
boy oh boy, her newly renovated house sure is nice.
i love all her hotel like toilets and i cant wait to party in her entertainment room.
hahaha. her dad gave a speech before the highlight of the night.
well well, highlight of the night has gotta be.........
her present. it is a huggggge present..
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a white volkswagen beetle! woots.

i rem talkin bout it randomly with eunice on our busride home before.

plus, yvette,abi and i mentioned smth like "for all we know, she'll receive a set of car keys"

woots. (: bday girl sure kept this secret from us well!

sunday saw me at another housewarming. hahah.

ms yueer drove us(EC n me) to school today(:

2009-02-13T02:00:00.002+08:00

haven't felt stressed in a long time.
and i just felt it whilst doing my assignment.
the "so many factors running through my mind"
the jumbling up of theories.
the ~~bite nails~~ only when stressed ok!
and and even to the extent that my hands were shakin as i type.

the best part? it ain't even due soon.
and i'm thinkin, i was lamenting to myself that i am not stressing myself enough this sem.
or rather motivated and driven.

guess i threw all the promises i made to myself outta the window. gosh. feels remorseful =x

brother's bday dinner at grand copthorne this evening.
worth the price since it was a 1-for-1 deal. =x
we even had a slice of free cake for bday boy. presented beautifully.
and freshly squeezed orange juice on the house. (: hahah

out~ love!

2009-02-06T00:21:00.004+08:00

read THIS. transsexual toilet (:
what are your views on it?
is it just encouraging them, egging them on to continue on this path.. OR
do you reckon it is just providing them the space they require?

stupidly walked into and sat in the wrong lecture room today.
was wondering why everyone looked so unfamiliar to me.
luckily i wasn't the only goon-do. hahaha.

statistics is not my forte at all. sighhs.
a whole module solely on business stats! just ~~shoot~~ me =/

thoughts and more thoughts have just been running through my mind,
can't stop these incessant thoughts.

2009-01-30T15:16:00.002+08:00

"geraldine darling for laughing at me all the time that she only had a few mouth of noodle when someone else was done eating. lol"

hello my dear, laughter is infectious. (:

2009-01-20T00:48:00.003+08:00

someone commented that i have too few lines. tsk. hello! =)

in the afternoon, with nothing better to do,
i picked up a pair of scissors and comb,
headed to the toilet and attempted to trim my fringe.
that very act left my entire sink and its surroundings covered with my hair.
boy oh boy, how very thick my hair is. lol.
mind you, it's just the fringe!

recently brought my granny for check up.
she doesn't understand english. nurses serving us were malays,
and there and then, it suddenly dawned on me that chinese is extremely important.
made so many mistakes writting some instructions down for my gran. ~~stupidfool~~

reality is just so harsh.
it makes you decide. decisions might result in several different consequences.
take the offer and leave others behind or reject the offer and leave yourself behind.
which would you choose? obviously it'll be the former right?
self interest above everything else...

love.

2009-01-12T15:36:00.002+08:00

small things often lead up to something major.
a lil tension to a fight.

okaye, so school's officially started last week.
from 160+ in the class to..... 380+ this semester!
tough tough tough competition!

recently i think i'm lost for words.
words just don't come out as naturally.
and i speak incoherently.
i don't understand why. hahah.

out!

2009-01-06T17:42:00.002+08:00

the feelin of seeing someone familiar is great.
what more when you dun recall the person's name at all!
but the person recognises not only your face but your name. (:

wondering how my 2009 will turn out.

2008-10-29T00:15:00.002+08:00

back from short genting trip.

enter for breakfast at the cafe and you feel like you've entered some madhouse.
or perhaps a refugee camp.
some unpleasant event durin breakfast on the 1st day.
stupid rude young BOY got me riled up in the mornin.
disgustingly rude. no manners whatsoever.

anyway, there were news that someone committed suicide over there ):
why don't they understand that life is fragile?
what they are doing is not ending the pain,
it is adding on to the pain!

2008-10-18T02:01:00.002+08:00

bangs head bangs head.
i wonder why i let myself bother with such trival stuff.
i wonder why my mind is racing as it is.
it shouldn't i shouldn't have let it.

nice bumpin into jasmine at the busstop. (:

2008-10-15T01:08:00.002+08:00

teeheeheehee.
screw the last paper. hints given were crap.
so was the format. and the context.
whole paper is totally not what we studied/had lessons for! booo.
so much for my stayin up late and ~~breakindown~~

some bowlin after that, cuz movie timings really sucked. lol
bumped into coursemates in the bowlin alley.
the one who sat beside me during exam and who banged the table whilst attempting to leave early silently. LOL!

2008-10-11T00:53:00.002+08:00

TGIF TGIF TGIF TGIF TGIF!
TGIF TGIF TGIF TGIF TGIF!
half the battle more!

hangon hangon!
battling battling.... out!

2008-09-16T16:56:00.003+08:00

the once a sem event is fast approachin.
yes, the much dreaded exams.......
now, i just need the determination and concentration.

wonder how i slept last night,
i woke up with a stiff neck.
and i cant turn my head to the left. hahha.

as usual, there's so much to complete in so little time.
screams*

i missmy girls! <3

2008-09-05T01:42:00.000+08:00

day started out all fine..till 1odd

2 f letters was all it took to spoil my day.
my mood.. to put me in a daze.
im sorry if i ignored any questions asked.
or did not want to give a definite answer.
i isn't something worth mentioning at all.

shocked to disappointed to angry at self.
up till now0133 hrs, the anger hasn't subsided.

all i wanna do right now is to curl up into a ball.
roll ard and attempt not to care. roar

though mood was spoilt,
really glad to head out with ex-grpmates.
we sure miss each other's prescence! lol.
session filled with juicy gossip bout ppl in class.
coming from someone who demanded for more gossip.
TSK! LOL!

going to curl up now. argh. bye

2008-09-04T02:25:00.002+08:00

lecturer was being overly concerned abt attendance issues.
he made a big hoo-ha about it some 3weeks ago.
implemented some ridiculous measures.
and it still going on about it, even though we're just 2 lessons away from the last lesson.
yesterday, he decided to do something more ridiculous after realisin somehad disappeared after break.
i wonder how he manages to remember where we sit, who was where.
who was beside who.

wonderful scanning/memorising.

thursday, lookin forward to it! (:

2008-08-30T01:25:00.001+08:00

Total score is 45. Interpretation of Results

Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.

http://www.shanemcdonald.com/laughs/l-dr-phils-test.html

2008-08-28T02:38:00.001+08:00

wnaetdotiivnteioyuotaayprt.
race race race.

i think i have a sleepin disorder. (self diagnosed)
cant get into the bed before 2am.
therefore i kinda envy those that manage to sleep early.
LOL.

.jean says:
love u,wife!
.jean says:
hahaha

wahaha, these kinda msges bring me back to sanity.
to where i need to plant myself firmly.
and not fly away to insanity,
where i lash out at innocent ppl many a times for reasons unexplained.
im really sorry i always do that to you all! heh.

zooom zooom! racing off to try and sleep.

You say that we've got nothing in common

No common ground to start from

And we're falling apart

You'll say the world has come between us

But I know you just don't care

And I said, "What about Breakfast at Tiffany's"

She said, "I think I remember the film

and as I recall, I think, we both kinda liked it."

And I said, "Well, that's one thing we got."

I see you - The only one who knew me

And now your eyes see through me

I guess I was wrong

So what now?

It's plain to see we're over

And I hate when things are over

When so much is left undone

2008-08-27T18:19:00.002+08:00

need to get down to a creative store.
oh, the importance of and reliance on music players.

countdown countdown.!
2.5 weeks more to the end of lessons.
2.5 weeks to submission of last assignment.
6.5 weeks more to exams.
pace is quicker than ever.
not wanting an end.
feel the stress build up.
loadsa smarty pants in the class.
i shall go hound my smarty friends soon!
wahahah.

2008-08-21T00:43:00.002+08:00

You have always been on the move seeking affectionate, satisfying and harmonious relationships. Your ultimate goal has been the realisation of an intimate union in which there could be love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust. It has often been said that 'True love is just around the corner' and - if you haven't found it as yet - you possibly soon will.

You like the better things in life. You are sensuous and emotional. You are a follower of the Arts and you seek an environment that will give you the fulfilment to the senses that you need.

You are feeling under considerable pressure and you are being forced to make concessions. You are not particularly happy with this state of affairs but you feel that you have no alternative. If you were to force issues you would be left out or completely ignored by one and all.

Recently everything seems to have gone wrong and so you are experiencing considerable stress and anxiety due to mental conflict. A continuous case of 'Should I?' or 'Shouldn't I?'. At this particular moment in time you feel as if you have reached the end of your tether and it seems impossible to ever rectify the situation and so you have decided, perhaps quite unrealistically, to postpone making any further decisions. Disappointment and unfulfilled hopes have given rise to despondency. This conflict between hope and necessity is creating considerable pressure. Instead of resolving this by facing up to making the essential decision, you are likely to immerse yourself in the pursuit of trivialities as an escape route.

The tensions and stresses that you have experienced of late have been the result of trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond your capabilities. You feel completely inadequate to cope with the situation and you would like nothing better to escape from it all and to be able to relax in a problem and pressure free environment where you can do your thing
whatswrongwhatwsrongitstheweirdestfeelinever
ishouldntfeelthewayidowhyissituncontrollable
tell me bout it...

2008-08-19T02:19:00.000+08:00

BIG FAILURE.

2008-08-19T01:10:00.002+08:00

head's been spinning since what.. early morning.
rahh* feel like bitting someone now. hahh.

jess brightens gerr's day through her lil actions (x

gotta control my thoughts.
unnecessary stuff racing through the back of my mind.

2008-08-14T16:53:00.002+08:00

why blow things outta proportion
it's sucha small matter to begin with.
cant see from your point of view at all.

woots, over and done with 2 tests!
next comes the 2 deadlines.
my only hope is that there won't be ~~sleepless~~ nights.
hahaha.

school's becoming a slightly more bearable place.
with the many "new" familiar faces ard (:

2008-08-02T02:44:00.002+08:00

helloe helloe ms dreygoh! i blogged! haha!
waves frantically*

dun come killing me cuz i complain too much.
wahaha. msn-in with you makes me laugh so much.
missyou ok. LOL

2008-08-02T01:54:00.002+08:00

disillusionised.. well, kinda.

some just need to learn the art of speech.
the art of what to say and what not to say.
seriously, don't you ever think before you shoot your mouth off?
perhaps also the art of getting along with ppl better.
if you'd open your eyes a lil more and stop living in your world all the time..

2008-07-29T00:53:00.002+08:00

neeed to keep by my promises(to myself).

seeing my dear jess & tere spells HAppy.
endure those math lessons! lol.

2008-07-22T00:28:00.004+08:00

sometimes i wonder why am i so kind..

i neeeed to get started,
so dumb.
so lost in all aspects.
get me back on track!

it takes two hands to clap.
im tired of trying to get you.
getting a "cant be bothered" response only much much later.
what have i done to deserve this?
if this is all our years of friendship is worth to you..
what more can i say?what more should i do?
we lost it back then due to immature reasons, but we found it soon..
and now its happenin all over again.

2008-07-08T01:16:00.002+08:00

dun act high and mighty. it's obvious to me if not to you.

skippedabeat.

havent seen you girls(tere,yj) at all!
what time do you all go to school?! haha. call me! hah

need to catch up on sleeeep.
i seriously wonder what i do every night. (:

2008-07-01T23:53:00.000+08:00

hello. if uve the spare time.

http://kevan.org/johari?name=gdine (:

2008-06-29T02:09:00.002+08:00

the weeks seem to pass so fast.
there goes the holidays and here comes school. ,
on the brighter side, i can meet/bump............
teresa, jessica, carolyn, jasmine, qN.... etc,
that thought of them makes me happier (:
yes, not forgetting u EC. hahh,

being out everyday is damaging/
i hav an annorexic wallet, as cousin calls it. hah!
throwing up when we dun even feed it. bad bad.

2008-06-04T01:20:00.000+08:00

how does a headache/pounding head for four consecutive days sound? grrr.

screw it, results coming out later.
i DO NOT anticipate it at all.

2008-05-23T00:49:00.002+08:00

she is feelin so lost.

she feels like an idiot.

she doesn't know what to say.

she doesn't know what to do.

hurtin

='(

still, the sichuan matter is far worse than anything.

2008-05-23T00:42:00.002+08:00

TRY IT. SOME HANDWRITTING QUIZ.i think it is so true(:
Geraldine uses judgment to make decisions. She is ruled by her head, not her heart. She is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see her as unemotional. She does have emotions but has no need to express them. She is withdrawn into herself and enjoys being alone.

The circumstances when Geraldine does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets her mad enough to tell her off, she will not be sorry about it later. She puts a mark in her mind when someone angers her. She keeps track of these marks and when she hits that last mark she will let them know they have gone too far. She is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All her conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. She is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, she has poise.

Geraldine will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. She would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, she will show her love by the things she does rather than by the things she says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because she feels her mate should already know. The only exception to this is if she has logically concluded that it is best for her mate to hear her express her love verbally.

Geraldine is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to her, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of her sound judgment. She will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. She will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and she will always ask "Is this best for me?"

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Geraldine doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Geraldine will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!

In reference to Geraldine's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Geraldine slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.

She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Geraldine can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Geraldine is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Geraldine basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.

Geraldine is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

Geraldine is very self-sufficient. She is trying not to need anyone. She is capable of making it on her own. She probably wants and enjoys people, but she doesn't "need" them. She can be a loner.
Something is incomplete in Geraldine's life. She feels frustration relating to her physical needs and desires. Somewhere in her life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Geraldine's sexual needs.

Geraldine exaggerates about everything that has a physical nature. Although she may not intend to deceive or mislead, she blows things way out of proportion because that is the way she views them. She will be a good story teller. This exaggeration relates to all areas of her material world. Geraldine allows many people into her life because she is accepting and trusting. She is sometimes called gullible by her friends. That only really means that she trusts too many people. Geraldine has a vivid imagination.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Geraldine has left lots of white space on the right side of the paper. Geraldine fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Geraldine has an unhealthy relationship to the past and has a fear of moving forward. The right side of the page represents the future and Geraldine seems unwilling to face the fear of getting started living now and planning for the future. Geraldine seems to be clinging to past events and spending lots of time thinking about what happened. It would be best to leave the past behind and move on. Stop crowding that left margin.

http://handwritingwizard.com/analysis.php

2008-05-22T00:06:00.001+08:00

LIBRA - The Harmonizer

Nice to everyone they meet. Can't make up their mind. Have own unique appeal. Creative, energetic, and very social. Hates to be alone. Peaceful,generous. Very loving and beautiful. Flirtatious. Give in too easily.Procrastinators. Very gullible.

90% true i think. haha (:

2008-05-21T01:36:00.003+08:00

my aunt told me stories bout me when i was young.
she told me there was once, when i was about 4-5 yrs old, (i was sleeping with my parents then)
i stood outside her door and said,
"don't know why daddy and mummy fight last night, they were making sooo much noise"
hahah, wtf.

and another time, at ndp, i was bout 6-7 yrs, there was a helicopter hovering above the stadium, so i said "daddy, why the helicopter never move? it's tired ah?"

omg, it is damn funny now when i hear bout it.
and it is innocently cute. hahh.

oh yeah, this pri sch friend i've not seen since pri school called out to me today.
and she said i haven't changed since pri school that's why she recognise me.
hahh, is that a good thing or a bad thing?

ithinkiamstartingtogettsicar.itslikeiseesomanyofthemallofasudden.
andiamhatingtheverysightofthemugh.

2008-05-19T01:59:00.002+08:00

helloe there EuniceC!
i had no idea you even pop-ed by here. =)
thank you for listning that night
u know hw much i looove u. haha

this week has been full of "meetings"
"family meetings"
cuz we sit and discuss STUFF,
STUFF that isnt very pleasant.

a rubber band can snap when it's over stretched,
from what i see, i think the rubber band might snap soon,
with the way the matter is being "handled"

big fat sigh..

my only wish is that everything will blow over,
and everything will be alright.
as dangerous as it is now,
i hope and pray that everything's gonna turn out fine.
we might hav blown things outta proportion cause we don't know the absolute truth. but..

i pray..
for her to snap out.
for her to realise the severity of things.
for her to realise how dangerous the situation can be/get.
for her to realise it's hurting us all inside to see her like this.
especially her parents and sis.
for her to realise that we are going to be there for her.